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"Powerful . . . a poetic meditation on how love or attempts at loving can drive us to madness." - The Boston Globe "We learn about the cracks in Felix's upbringing, the hurt from the breakup itself, and a pain that spans a lifetime, all through a sharp millennial voice." - Time. A best book of the year: Time, Chicago Public Library, Electric Lit When Camonghne Felix goes through a monumental breakup, culminating in a hospital stay, everything - from her early childhood trauma and mental health to her relationship with mathematics - shows up in the tapestry of her healing. In this exquisite and raw reflection, Felix repossesses herself through the exploration of history she'd left behind, using her childhood "dyscalculia" - a disorder that makes it difficult to learn math - as a metaphor for the consequences of her miscalculations in love. Through reckoning with this breakup and other adult gambles in intimacy, Felix asks the question: Who gets to assert their right to pain? Dyscalculia negotiates the misalignments of perception and reality, love and harm, and the politics of heartbreak, both romantic and familial.